Today is Sunday, September 2, 2007. It is labor day weekend...I was still very tired yesterday, but slept well last night. I can see I just have to work through this state of being. Paul had not slept well the night before and was confused. But he said to me, "Don't fret," and also, "it's a long process". I still cannot believe he has this terrible disease which will probably end up killing him. My wonderful Pali. I can hardly take it in, after all these years. It began in 2000 if not earlier. But I came across the letter Paul wrote to the insurance company in 2004 and it was so wonderful and coherent. I know he already had memory problems, but what he could do despite this. It was amazing. And now in Bath Manor he is so very confused. I think he will get better from this, but the ultimate direction is more loss. Actually, this is true of all human beings, but I see it more with Paul and it breaks my heart. I should focus on the wonderful life we had together....And it was wonderful and we have such a wonderful love. September 20th will be our 35th wedding anniversary.